Say goodbye to the old me....

It's time to say goodbye to the old me (as my husband would say - 'once again'!).  ..

I need to improve my life - my health to be more specific.  I am 16 stone and really need to deal with it.  I don't feel it's an issue personally, but then there are big issues at every turn which upsets me about being big - clothes / chairs / sports / intimacy / mirrors....  The latter of these is the most evil to me.  I find I don't feel big unless I see myself, then it all hits home and the realisation sets in once again and the shock of what I actually look like hurts.

There have been many new starts, each accompanied by their many new start failures.  I have found it harder to keep track of diet since my son was born 18 months ago, but to be honest, it's always been a stuggle.  I was just more active when younger, that's all.  I then took up smoking & drinking, then uni, then severe depression & breakdown....  Things in life took it's toll & here I am.

I've tried a number of diets - Weight Watchers did nothing for me.  Slimming World worked very well once, but not in the following multitude of times I attempted since then.  Basically, I dont' deal with 'dieting' at all.  i cannot be told not to do something.  I need to do it myself on my own terms - ups & downs, etc....

And so, this blog is going to be my way of recording, venting and regulating myself.  As it's completely annonymous, I can be completely truthful, yet know (or at least feel) that there is someone out there listening and maybe wishing me well on my journey.  Maybe there are simliar people out there with such struggles with weight. 

There are other parts of my life which definitely need improvements and these will quite probbaly come up along the way, but we'll start with this....

Wish me well people - I shall log in with how day one goes tomorrow.  xxx